3. hi!
PART I
I use “like” in place of
“what I would describe it as -
but not what I know for sure...
the person who described it to me
would describe it as”
like trying to explain how you use the word “like”
I use “how”
[ “how” can be the previous step to knowing “use”]
...if someone knows how to [do] something.
You know how someone has to teach us
how to speak a language
in order for us to be able to use it?
And depending on who the teacher is,
fluctuates how well the person learning the language
is learning how to use the language?
Well what if I was the greatest person at using the English language.
Suppose I knew
the ins and outs,
the nuances,
of the English language
better than anyone else.
What if that was my
“party trick”
in this game of life?
What if knowing
the ins and outs
of English language
was my gift to the world.
It was what I brought to life with me.
And the twist?
The FUN twist?
For this particular lifetime -
i have to teach the ins and outs of the english language to Americans who think they’ve already learned all the ins and outs, the nuances of the English language when in reality, they hadn’t even scratch the surface yet.
“Hadn’t even scratched the surface yet” what a fun metaphor!
I love it so SO SO much.
Anyway,
shit I forgot my punchline.
Give me a sec to remember it.
I wanna be honest with you guys and type what I was thinking not only type what I want to write, what I think is worth writing.
Because what if the easiest way to learn what people mean when they say things was to listen to how you would say things.
Sometimes I say things
and they’re not the things
I
“would say”
if I could choose what I say,
which is to say
I said something
I had only thought of
a few seconds
about at the time
when I said
what I said.
I don’t know that we mean everything we say when it’s a trigger response. No not a triggered response. Just a trigger response. Something didn’t trigger YOU but you answered with the speed of a gun’s trigger. If trigger can be a verb then it’s pretense can be an adjective.
(I’m horrible at grammar so that may not be right. I was taught english by my mother who was only 5 when she moved to america from italy. she left italy only knowing broken sicilian and learned english by force in kindergarten. she was the only one who spoke italian in her class. it was sad.)
Back to the plot line...
Maybe I described that wrong. It’s a trigger response because someone didn’t trigger you but you did something WITH trigger. I could do something aggressively, or I can do something with immediate assertion.
You let your words go
before you thought about
what you SHOULD say
before you say
what you’re going to say.
Because if it’s something
you SHOULD say
you’d thought about
what you’re going to say
before you say it.
We know that thinking
is what comes before
we KNOW something
(or at least we think)
**slap my shoulder, that was a good one...
to all my psychic sisters 😉😉**
And we know this because
everything we’ve ever learned
is from thinking about something.
We know
what a rock could do
because we thought about
what a rock wood do
the first time we learned
what a rock can do.
But sometimes things just happen to us
and that’s how we know
the meaning of the things
as they happen to us
and sometimes we don’t know
until we’ve thought about
how this thing
(any thing)
can do anything.
Or at least “a” thing.
A thing really rolls right into anything doesn’t it.
Kind of feels like how language continued to get smart,
huh!
Oh shit
I’m the smartest person at the English language.
That’s what my purpose being on earth is. To get sooooooooooo smart with the English language that I could teach people what I know about it.
And anytime I know more about it than others do I stay in teaching mode. I stay in teaching people the language. The trick is.. people can’t know I’m the smartest person at the English language because people don’t like to be told that. They like to be
I feel like my use of the word “like” is the only reason I’m continuing to be successful in masking my smartest from society.
This way they always think I’m a little stupid because of how much I use the word “like.” Because people like
Just wanna pause and say - I never agreed aesthetically to periods being within the quotations of a word being used to generalize the way the person speaking would bucket a subset of information but i know if a quoted word comes at the end of a sentence, the period goes inside the quotes.