8. while you were wondering




you were wondering if i was good enough 
pretty enough...

could my attraction last through the years
would my magnetism keep you captivated

or was i just another girl
pining for your bed side manners

were you being pulled into me
or just pushed down again

you always thought you were a sure bet

of course, she’d be below you
she’d be the one to have to rise

that the choice would be yours

to throw a hand down the well
or let the princess starve

while you were wondering if i was the one
worthy of your holyness and helping hand

i was building ladders and double knotting bows
with the patience and grace of a pope

that’s the difference between you and i
my gold coins glisten in the fountain

the only thing that shines for you
is the palm of your hands

when you hear the sound of my voice
composure kept, no one can know

you’d never left your good looks slip
you fear they’re all that you have

hiding the perspiring of your pores
one slip of the tongue and you’re done

insecure
insincere

split between the truth
and your nervousness

frozen at the bottom of the well

how did the snow
fall
down
to
you

or was it you who fell?

can’t remember if i pushed you
or you pulled me

i’ll leave it up to the sticks and stones
to make sense of our bones

in love
or to death

we became
one in the same