1. me! so far!
It’s been a long and fulfilling process learning astrology and even more so, learning my own energy. I like to tell people that your birth chart is a snap shot of the universe when you were born; a blueprint for the energy that brought you into this world. Because that’s what it is.
A lot of people hate on astrology because they think it’s a frabricated column at the back of the lamest fashion magazine you’ve ever picked up. But like anything good in this life, it’s been appropriated, misued and abused. It’s one of the purest forms of philosophy. It holds all of the answers and yet it doesn’t give them to you with ease. It makes you work for the understanding. It tests you to see how much you really want to know about yourself before it tells you.
You have to either prove your interest or your willingness.
One of my favorite yet most challenging pieces of my energy is my libra mars in the 12th house. My scorpio rising is already so deep and dark with pluto attached to it, then it sends all that energy to the basement of my mind, the 12th house where i spend most days fighting for justice and the love for the good in the world - by way of war (it is a libra mars afterall).
I spend all day battling myself, trying to figure out what is the right and wrong, good and bad of every situation. I always calculate me and my deeds into the equation. I never miss a detail. I fight fair.
I’m always tossing and turning over me - as a part of society, and society - as a part of who I am. That’s where my aquarius moon comes in. She’s always thinking about the individual within the collective and the individuals that make up the collective. I’ve got you and I running through my mind all the time.
It’s exhausting. It’s in my home. It’s all over my books. I can see you on the walls. Taking up space even when you’re not around.
It took me a little while to understand this energy and a long time to accept it as my fate. I always wanted to be the chill girl who didn’t care about anything because she never did anything with true intention. But that’s so not me.
I’m fairness-obsessed. Driven by mankind. I haven’t had a surface level conversation in 17 years. I only ask about the weather to make you feel safe before we go under together. That’s my virgo sun.
All of this gets pushed to the top of my pyramid. My leo venus and my 28° midheaven. That’s how I know that as painful as this all can be, it’s going to end up being the brightest part of my shine in this lifetime.
What I’ve learned from getting to know my own chart is that whenever you get a birth chart reading, you should feel good. You should feel like there was no possible way for you to have any other path in this life. Your challenges, your purpose, your whole world should feel already claimed by you by the end of it.