9. aphorisms
Laughs burst
Midnights met
I keep a glass of tears on my night stand
I haven’t slept in months
If you have a problem relating yourself to a god
Relate the universe to a living being
Like trees bending towards their life force
Water
Like love
Earth is such a miracle in and of itself
The boat creates the waves that hit the shore line or so the moon has led you to believe
I wanna share a couch with my partner
Not have separate chairs
I’ve worked really hard to have my own money
The idea of relying on a partner for financial stability
Was either never taught to me, never absorbed by me or never of interest to me.
I’m not sure which one ended me up here
But my wallet sure is glad I can treat myself to whatever I want
Everything doesn’t happen for a reason
Somethings just are
Everything is unfolding as it needs to
In order to get what we reason for
We must always know both sides
You and I
Universe and we
Them and us
It’s so easy for me to intimidate men
Without even trying
I just be me
And they’re intimidated
If you didn’t watch me walk into the office
I wouln’t intimidate you with my walk into the office
You guys got scared.
You wanna do what you know.
Keep the money in the circle.
It’s not the art of awe
It’s the beauty of charm
I saw you today
Walking your black lab around the park Your lanky body breezing by
I knew it was you because
Like the one you grew up with
Dog off the leash
Your lanky body breezing by
My best thoughts
Getting carried away
Before I can remember them
That’s okay
I loved him the way I knew how
Not the way he needed me to
I couldn’t see how he wanted to be loved
And I couldn’t see the way he was trying to love me
Because he was loving me the way he knew how
And not the way I wanted to be loved
He loves my natural shine.
It’s only off by 1 degree of his heart.
That’s almost perfect.
With a little room for error.
Complete, with openness.
Nothing can ever be absolute.
Nothing human can ever be 100.
We’re all pieces.
Of one puzzle.
That ends when it ends.
We must never finish it all.
Not to complete ourselves completely.
Because then the pleasure of wil
will be gone.
Without the contrast to pleasure,
we wouldn’t know.
That pleasure is always the answer to displeasure.
To make joy understand it’s not sad
We must feel sad
To make pleasure know it’s not challenge
We must make things challenging
Sometimes you have to give yourselves tasks just to put energy into something.
Baby steps, take more baby steps
Babies must turn into children
Children must turn into adults
Adults must turn into the old
Take more baby steps
Age is grown into
You give energy into growing
To receive your growth
That’s how the world spins
I have always gotten what people get from dating, from the world. I flirt with everyone. I get into deep conversations that unlock you into connection with another in the grocery store aisle and in the back of ubers.
A lot of people talk about vibes but seldom understand energy. How it really works. How subtle and yet powerful it is.