how
disgusting
for a woman to have thoughts

how
disgusting
for a woman to have opinions

how
disgusting
for a woman to share her story

how
disgusting
for a woman to have a brain

you flipped the switch

as soon as i had something to
say

lights on

time to go home

but

when i was just a beautiful body
how
desirable


when i was just the nape of my neck
how
desirable


when i was just the curve of my chapped lips
how
desirable


when i was just the sweet tone of my voice
how
desirable


you never gave me an in between

you never gave me a chance to be both


you wanted my approval with
a kiss
not a compliment

and i’m the fool for thinking you were different

wondering if you were
the one

silly
me

should’ve kept my mouth shut
shouldn’t have made that deal

should’ve just looked pretty
shouldn’t have told you i like you

but you deserved to know
i don’t like hiding things from you

i wanted you to see all of me
and love me anyway

but one crack in the illusion
and i was sent to the curb

what felt sweet
now bitter cold

how disgusting it is
to desire a thing you cannot love

that’s you