5. that’s a lot of liquor for one guy
one day you will wake up and you will have to make the hardest decision of your life. there will be no right or wrong answer. no cheat sheet or moral codes to double check the equation. you will have to decide what you’re going to do all on your own. you won’t know until after you’ve made the decision if it was the best you could do or just enough. you won’t know the weight of the moment until it’s floating as light as a feather in the rear view mirror. you won’t know how much more you could’ve done until you see how far what you did goes. you won’t know regret until it’s been done and made. you can think of a thousands concepts, a million pathways to go but you won’t know which one is the best answer until you give your answer its best shot at being true. you won’t know what you don’t know until you know what you didn’t know. life is slipping away. you haven’t kept up with all the things that lead you to this moment. you forgot to keep track of all the stars you passed on your way through the galaxy. all the people. all the moments. what are they accumulating for? what is culminating? are you supposed to be here? were you supposed to go left at the intersection? did you take the road less traveled or are you back where you started? the start of what you’ve been running away from. the last major moment you thought you learned from. the lesson you thought you knew like the back of your hand. where your last big regret left it’s mark. where the pain can be seen in black and white. did you fall into the same trap or did you do something different this time? did you stay on the right side or are you in the wrong again? never knowing. the stars aren’t telling. one day you will wake up and you will have to make the hardest decision of your life.
i love you.